A Little Bit of Everything

Oh, boy. Where do I start? It's been a long couple weeks.

Monday, August 9th, Uncle Dale was in a fatal motorcycle accident so that sent my life (and the rest of the family's) into a whirlwind. I had never cried so hard in my life and I never want to cry like that again. The next day the top of my uterus had felt like I did a hundred crunches. It hurt. After resting a whole day in the car (because we drove to Iowa on Tuesday) I felt much better. By the end of the week and after many tears, I decided to go to the emergency room in Nebraska City just to check up on the baby. I wasn't having any symptoms such as cramping or bleeding. I just wasn't eating right, had the poops, and was under a ton of stress. And I know stress is not good for the baby. I got to hear his/her heartbeat. The first nurse couldn't find it. Then a student came in to find it. She found it for a second or so and then lost it. Then the doctor came in and in a completely different spot he found it. Good God the baby had a nice and strong heartbeat. I was laughing and crying at the same time. It was just what I needed. It was almost as if I melted into another world for that small moment. If I remember correctly, the student measured the heartbeat at 138.

Sleeping is much more complex now. I feel as though I have a 20 pound weight belt strapped to my waist. I don't get crushed if I lay on my back yet. But if I turn to the side, I have to have major support. My belly just feels so heavy. And I love waking up in the morning now. My uterus is hard as a rock when I wake up and I can feel all around it. It's so cool!

I felt the baby kick while I was standing up for the very first time the other day. Some say it feels like butterflies. Mine feels like a quick little muscle spazm. I don't feel the baby very often. It's still awfully early.

Paul and I went to Walmart the other day. We happened to go through the baby aisle. He finally realized how much baby stuff costs. Oh, and guess what else! ...He fell in love with the Pooh Bear stroller/swing/etc. Here we go again......

One more thing......... I'm leaning towards thinking "he" is a "she".