Nervous Breakdown

I cracked on my husband last night. Yesterday I posted that I cried to him on the phone. I did a little more then that a couple hours later.

It was all over something stupid and now I realize that it was definitely no big deal. Nothing to freak out about. But I did.

When he came home, all I could do was scream at him and cry. For no reason I guess. I just went crazy. I cried for a couple hours. I couldn't help myself. I got so frustrated I threw my phone at the wall (luckily it had the case on it so it didn't break, it just came apart). Then I got so mad I slammed the door hard enough to crack the door jamb from the bottom to the top and knock stuff off the wall in the office which two rooms away.

Why was I so mad??????

I think it's my nerves. I realize now that my husband didn't do anything wrong. I was a complete bitch to him and I shouldn't have been.

All I have been able to think about for the past 24 hours is what is going to be happening next week. My ultrasound is on Monday and from there the doctor plays it by ear, so to speak. What if the timing is off on everything and we don't get it done? What if it doesn't work? What if it does? Do we have the money? What if "this"? And what about "that"? UGH!!!

My mind keeps wandering and I'm going nuts. I can't find anything to take my mind off it. My nerves are getting the best of me. I'm going crazy!