First Ultrasound

I had my very first ultrasound June 15th. Even though the baby doesn't look much like a baby yet, he/she is still the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

I got my new due date. It is now 1/30/2011. During the ultrasound I was 7 weeks 2 days. Tomorrow I will be exactly 8 weeks. So every Sunday I gain a week. Baby's heartbeat was 145 beats per minute. I love my beautiful baby.

I finally got a call from my neurologist yesterday. My medicine dosage has to go up already. I was taking 100mg of Lamictal in the morning and 100mg at night. Starting tonight, for two weeks, I take 100mg in the morning and 150mg at night. Then thereafter, I take 100mg in the morning and 200mg at night.

I've been starting to get nausea. Yesterday it wasn't extremely bad but I'm not used to it so I didn't fare too well. All day and night I felt like crap. And all I wanted to do was sleep. Today I've been feeling "blah" too. I bought some ginger snap cookies last night, so when I feel icky, I eat a few cookies. It kind of helps. I probably don't eat enough, though.

My appetite has gone down. I don't eat as much as I did. I want to, but can't. One thing I absolutely love to eat is salad. Some baby spinach, with ranch dressing, cheddar cheese, and croutons. Yummy!

I had an emotional breakdown a couple days ago. I had a VERY long day at work and was looking forward to coming home to my husband. He wasn't home (and no he didn't just up and disappear, he texted me and told me where he was going). Boy, oh boy, did I freak out on him. All I did all night was cry and scream at him. I couldn't stop. I woke up to swollen eyes because I cried so hard. I even cried quite a bit that day, too. I've become an emotional roller coaster.

Lately I've been contemplating what I'm going to do before and after the baby is born. I have two states of mind. At one moment I keep thinking I'm going to work as long as I can and when I have the baby, I'm going to stay home with him/her and take online and evening classes. The jobs I can get now will only pay for daycare so it'll be pointless for me to work. On the other hand, I want to take a phlebotomy course this fall so I can get a decent paying job after I take maternity leave. But if I go to school now, it'll take away from my hours at work and it'll cost money for me to drive back and forth and for books and all that other stuff. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. School starts August 30, so I don't have too long to think about it. Ugh! What to do. What to do.

Oh, one more thing. Did I mention my boobs are getting big? Like, huge! I'm already falling out of my bras. Time to go bra shopping.